I don't wanna do this anymore.
You know what really sucks? People from your past trying to have contact with you once again. After everything that has happened.. After weeks and weeks of crying yourself to sleep.. After thinking and regretting "THE" decision you made.. After having your heart broken over and over and over again, you wake up one day and you tell yourself, "This ends here.. Time to move on." Then day by day you learn to face the world alone.. You meet new people.. Experience new things.. Have fun.. Enjoy being the single person you are now.. Slowly, you realize that there were days that you haven't even thought of him, not once. So you say to yourself, "I'm ok now, I'm over IT."
Then this 'fuckin day comes...
You open your Y!M, and then you see multiple offline messages coming from THAT person. You try to ignore them but the messages still keeps on comin' (you're online now). Then you check your tagboard, and miracles of all miracles, you see 3 "tags" coming from You-Know-Who. The Fuck! You try to ignore the "buzz" from your Y!M but somehow, you can't help it. Hard as you try, you succumb. You reply. Hi's and hello's were said.. Then you think, "This is nice, maybe we could be friends afterall." In the middle of the conversation, he asks for something. Something unexpected. The nerve! So you quickly make something up and then sign out. But then the damage has been done. AGAIN. You once more are hurt. Just when you thought that tears wouldn't fall anymore, they do. And then you're back.. Back from where you once were, right back from the start.
Fuckin Sucks!
//Edited//
This is the last time that I'll be posting something like this.
I just really need to get it out of me.
Out of my system.
After this, I swear I won't ever think of (insert name here) again.
But for now, please just let me be...
Forget his name, forget his face, forget his kiss and warm embrace.
Forget the love that you once knew, he loves someone but it's not you.
Forget the love that you once shared, forget the face that once cared.
Forget the times you spent together, remember now he's gone forever.
Forget him when they play your song, forget you cried the whole night long.
Forget how close you two once were, remember now he's close to her.
Forget the thrill when he walked by, forget the times he made you cry.
Forget the way he spoke your name, remember things are not the same.
Forget the way he held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can.
Forget he said that he would wait, remember now your love is hate.
Forget the times that went too fast, forget his love that now is past.
Forget he said he'd leave you never, remember now he's gone forever.
Forget you memorized the way he walked, forget you memorized the way he talked.
Forget the things he used to say, remember now he's gone away.
Forget the way he used the phone, forget the nights you were alone.
Forget that he was once your world, remember now he loves another girl.
Forget his gentle, teasing way, forget you saw him yesterday.
Forget the things you used to do, remember now she loves him too.
Edited AGAIN//
And then a while ago, I found this and an invitation coming from him. (In Multiply)
And I quote, "Im sorry but I really love my girlfriend and thanks because of you I've realized how much she mean to me."Oh, mga english teachers jan? Anong mali dito?Wow, flattered naman ako, gumawa ka pa talaga ng multiply para sakin? Aww.. TSS!!My reply? "Okay." Haha. Sino bang nakikipagbalikan? Hindi naman ako diba? Sino bang try ng try makipag communicate ulit? Hindi rin naman ako diba?
But seriously, okay na talaga. Sige na, magsama na kayo. Woohoo!! =D
Yuck nandidiri tuloy ako bat ko pa ginawa tong entry nato eh. Pero nanjan na yan. Oh well. Walang kwenta...
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